Just before school started, we decided that it was time for Quinn to say good bye to his crib and transition into a big boy bed. While our first attempt months ago was not successful, this time went much smoother. We fully cleaned his room....grandma style. In the process, Quinn taught Mama a lesson.
After moving out all of his furniture into every open space upstairs, a small voice said, "I want to play with that truck." This very special semi was only a decoration in his room until this point. It was my truck....my grandpa's truck, made just for me with his old calloused hands.
After World War 2, Grandpa Gunvalson made trucks and toys for the kids in Spring Valley when there wasn't money for Christmas presents. Later, Uncle Chris got one when Grandpa's hands were smooth enough to still feel for a fine sanded finish. Late in his life, he made trucks for the girls. Rougher, aged, calloused hands and cracked finger tips, no longer able to feel the smooth, glass like surface....made trucks just for us...just for me. As a child, Chris played with his. Mine had not been touched. It was just my special truck.
So when Quinn asked for the truck, I faced the decision to keep the truck just for me, or to allow Quinn to have it. Toys are toys. He drives his trucks in the drive way and digs with them in the dirt. But those trucks can easily be replaced. A trip to the toy store is just minutes way. But Grandpa's hands are an eternity away.
A tearful conversation with Brian and his wise advice that Grandpa would have loved nothing more than to have his great grandson play with the truck, especially having had no son's of his own, lead to mama to learn to share. I battled my selfishness reluctantly, wanting to hold on to this physical connection to a man of such noble character, to hold on to this truck that represented a diligent work ethic, a generous spirit, and loving heart....my Grandpa...Quinn became the new owner of the special silver semi made just for him so many years before his birth by a man who would have been so madly in love with him.